hmmmm..
i'm not sure how to start..
i'm now using ah kor lappy to blog..
cuz i in hospital already..
sorry for not telling anybody..
i tot i will have a good day today.?
budd i didn't have the chance to have a good day..
maybe shi tian yi..
tian bu xiang wo si de na mo ming mu..
i'm in hospital now cuz going to have operation soon..
around 8 plus..
i scared..
and worry..
scared go in cant come out..
even ah kor and the doctor told mi is xiao shou shu..
and its onli 30mins-1 hour the most..
budd the fear is still there..
i even choose my funeral photo le..
as i'm very scared..
i scared i go into I.C.U again..
i think onli ah kor will cry for mi if i'm not coming out any more..
hmmmm..
and i got sum thing to say..
i scared wo mei you ji hui zai shuo le..
mummy i'm really very sorry..
pls dun be angry wif mi le..
and i wan to gain the trust back from you..
and of cuz i wan you to believe mi again..
pls accept my apologise..
pls..
when u really forgive mi le..text mi k..
if i really not coming out at least ah kor can tell mi beside my bed..
die de shi huo ye ke yi close eyes..
this is to daddy
when i not around must help mi to love mummy..
dun wei le xiao shi then quarrel..
dun make mummy shang xin k..
if not i will hunt u k..
to zhi da..
i msg u..budd u didnt reply quite hurting..
budd nevermind..
to match..
match..wo kai si le wor..
ni si dao na li qu..
ni ye mei shou wo de bing fang..
wo si le dou bu ming mu lor..
i'm lyk jiao dai sheng huo shi lor..
budd seriously wo zhen de hen pa..
mummy i really want yr full forgiveness..
i'm sowwie..
my love ones:
match,xueling,jason,zhi da,eric,we bin..
i love u guys k..i will miss u guys too..
baby photos up..foung it in ah kor lappy..<3

today sch sux..
budd still got to msg mum & dad..


tat gal really damn wad canzxc..
keep say things about mi..
say all u wants la hor..


TO MUMMY:


mummy cheer up k..dun sad liao..
heard tat u ar okie le..then jiu hao..
when i heard tat u dun really believe tat i care for u tat tym i really damn sad..
budd lati u say u believe.?
izit true.?
i dun wan lost u lor..:(
i cant mention how sad i am now...
i'm just...
down....
[and sorry didn't got yr permission i put yr pic here]



ZHI DA LIE TO MI..
HE LIED!!!!!
HAIX..

thz for mummy and zhi da to cheer mi up and lax mi down..


hey passerby..:)
thz for yr comments la..
u scold here scold there all same things de leh..
haha..not fun sia..
thz for yr mani mani tagg tagg..<3<3<3:D
today in sch damn sad..haix..dun wan to mention about it..
bye bi~

i dun wan always to be tat stupid gal tat always got play-ed..
i dun wan..
why always mi..
daddy always cor mi 'silly girl'..
am i.?
yes i am..
always got con..
no part of happiness..
onli got con..
life too hard for mi..
i should just end it..
END IT!!!!!!!!!!
hate myself and my life la..
no one can understand..
NO ONE..
wad for staying here..
wad for..
i never owe u all any thing..
i never..
budd why u all say and did lyk i owe u lyk tat..
wo mei you..
stand for my self.?
how to..
how to stand up for my self..
wan to explain tat tym..
u all tachers tell mi SHUT UP..
IS SHOLD BE I TELL U ALL TO SHUT UP..
AND GET OFF MY LIFE..
frenz even more worst backstab dao siao..
I GOT BACKSTAB U ALL FIRST MA..
I NEVER..ONCE ALSO NEVER..
i got spread all yr stuffz to others a not..I NEVER..
THEN WHY U ALL MUST DO TAT TO MI..
wo hao qi fu oh..
shit la..
life is unfair..unfair dao siao..
budd why!!!
i cant blame..
if i blame..i blame hu.?
my parents.?
my parents blame hu.?
my grandparents.?
keep lyk tat blame..their wont be a end..
tats why i CANT blame..
haix...

here i am to post..
yesterday went out wif jojo..
brought friendship ring..:)
meet little boi at j8..


today went out wif ah kor..cousins..uncle..


ah kor tok to mi about mani stuffz..
make mi cry hard hard..


daddy mummy dun qurrel le..
finally you two ar okie..
now i know..
no need to help u two..
cuz u two can do it yrself..
i lyk one extra la..


i found my self damn EXTRA..
EXTRA KID TAT NEVER GROWS!!!!
HATE MY SELF A LOT..
DUN FEEL LYK MSGING OR TOKING!!!


BYE BI~

nutting much to write about


today msg mummy and zhi da..


sch was okie..


no mood nao..


bye bi~

mi blog look so plain any ideas to make mi blog nicer.?
today in sch mi phone got confiscated:(..
budd get it back by sum ways;)[winks]..
today have sci super fun:)..


after sch sit out side class room the table..
wif sher..jo..lookie..mask..grandson..bunny..timo..little boi..ah tan too..
they pei mi wait for the MR.HIGH PANTZ B HO..haha..laughs^^..
he take his own sweet tym to come lor..
budd ish okie la:)..
saw Mr.chew..then we all bully him la..haha..fun:D..
after tat mi..sher and jo cab to j8 again:x..



went to eat mos buger..stupid guy gimmie attitude..
jo damn angry..almost scolded tat guy..thz jojo♥:D..
after eat MB..pei sher sher to wait for her bus..
after she went mi and jo went shop shop..
in the mean tym was msging wif zhi da and mummy:)..
around 4 plus i left..


home watch tv and msg wif zhi da:D..
now blogging:)..
zhi da nao keep force mi to eat..haha..
budd i dun feel lyk..
haha..sowwie..thz thz too:)..

saw this pic..really speaks out wad the pic wants to say..
:x
i will end here:)..

today morning cried in class:'(..
after crying..saw sci tat new teacher damn funny keep make mi laugh so i'm fine at his class..


went home was really down as i quarrel wif my daddy[jason]:(..
very sad thing k..:(
i cry lyk a crazy..
cuz was really damn sad..



To:Daddy Jason
daddy this post is for u..i dun know will u c this a not..
budd i just wan to write this to u..
daddy sowwie to throw my sad stuffz to u juz now..
you didn't owe mi any thing..is i owe u..
and i felt damn bad about it..
i didn't treat u as my puppet..
sorry for let u think this way..
u ar not my puppet..
u ar my Daddy:')..
juz now i go view yr blog read the post..
i'm sorry for not understanding your stuffz..
wif not understanding yr stuffz and i throw all my sad emotions to u..
i'm really damn sorry..
first tym you so fierce:(..
sowwie daddy:'(..
and daddy cheer up..
i'm sure u can ssolve everything k..
give each other tymz k..
and the things will be soon solve..
CHEER UP DAD:)..




juz now i went for piercing by impuls..
becuz today damn damn sad la..
pierced my eye-brown and lipz..
spend $12..
after tat went to the toliet..
saw myself in the mirror reflectionz..
OMG!!!
so i took off..and the gapz close..



dun think will blog so soon again..
haiz..
cuz bad things ar coming up again..
:'(

yesterday played mahjong..fun fun..cuz win all the way:)..
yue play yue you jing shen canzxcvb Xd..


today nutting special..
morning msg wif zhi da & the korean guy..
haha..


ke lian de zhi da he lose $70..
poor thing..
nao angry wif hymz again..ask him chat he say no..
HURTING CANZXCVB!!!:'(
never mind..>:l
jux wont ask hymz again got phobia liao..
....................................................


msg-ed wif mummy too..
mummy izit angry mi.?
cuz u keep send dot dot dot..
haiz..:'(


went to eat wif kor kor:)..
food there yumz yumz..:)
kor cut his cut out of impuls la..
damn eeeeeeyr lor..


stupid salon auntie..
cut my hair damn short..
budd lucky found out another hair style:)..
budd still look funny and wired :l..


sch starts tmr..not done wif any of the homework..
expect for projectwork..cuz got points:B..
haix..comfirm all the teachers nagz..scolding will be back..
frenship problemz too..
haix:'(..
muz face it again..
wo bu yao..
life too hard for mi..
far too hard...

yesterday damn piss off so didn't blog..

Today..wake up msg wif mummy and iz kor:)..then alan come screw my morning sweetest:s..piss off..then throw all my emotions to mummy:(..sowwie mummy..and thz for hearing all my crapz:)..

went out..go find celment pipi:]..fun fun..:)..

kor bring mi buy my black spects..haha..it is nice..budd i dun think it suitz mi:(..picz will be up soon..

sowwie for the short post..:)

as usual i was late again:s..hai dao caleb and little boi must wait for mi..sowwie..lucky we wasnt late for the show:p..alice in the wonderland ish okie okie to mi lor..i didnt slept in the show at least..got give the director of the show face canzxc..budd little boi and caleb didn't give face.. they slept for a while..badie lor they..sum thing happen in the theater..ish lyk damn pai seh lor..i step on the the guy leg then i fall on him..AIYO..pai seh sia..then i keep telling little boi..haha..lati went to eat:)..yumz yumz..

went home..went to exie house..he brought mi lots and tons of hello kitty,stitch:3..haha..and got one more pink dress..damn kawaii and nice..thz thz exie:3..♥♥♥

lati ah kor come fetch mi..cuz got party..went there then i know ish wine party..damn long never drink liao..at tat point of tym so scared i drunk..budd lucky i neva..white wine still the best after all:p..got one ish rose wine..tat one pui pui pui lor..haha..budd thz to invite mi to tat wine party..♥♥♥

quarrel wif zhi da just now..becuz of small matters..recor about it and i find mi damn childish la..sowwie zhi da:(..

tmr kor kor going bring mi to hotel to eating..haha:)..and getting a black spects tmr:)..cuz kor promise mi on tat..so he getting it for mi tmr..400-450 plus..damn expensive lor..btw thz thz kor kor:3..♥♥♥